I can totally understand that. I'm only at the beginning of transition myself, but looking ahead, it's more like "getting rid of something unpleasant" than "getting something good". Excitement would be an odd feeling to have for something that FIXES something wrong. To me, that's a feeling I get for something that's a positive good. Fixing my body to where it should've been is more relief. Looking forward to transition, I feel, along with nervousness, anxiety, fear, a sense of anticipated relief. A sense of a weight being lifted from my shoulders. I'll only be stuck with this male body for a little while longer, rather than the rest of my life.