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5 October 2014
Oct. 5th, 2014 09:51 pmShort one.
Today was pretty wretched. I do not have a diagnosis, obviously, but I think one of my mental issues is bipolar disorder. If this is bipolar disorder, it is the "ultradian" form, as I can cycle multiple times in a single day. Obviously this will be one of the first things I get checked out once the insurance is active, because while I can GUESS at this, there's no way for me to know for certain. If nothing else it can give me a starting point with a psychiatrist.
Also? As of this moment, my preferred pronouns are they/their and my name is reverting to Carla. I'd rather it were something more gender neutral, and I suppose I could go back to calling myself B or Bea, but whatever.
I would give a large sum of money to never, EVER have to deal with gender (either my own or others') ever again. I fucking hate gender, sex, sexuality and all that. It makes me nauseous.
Today was pretty wretched. I do not have a diagnosis, obviously, but I think one of my mental issues is bipolar disorder. If this is bipolar disorder, it is the "ultradian" form, as I can cycle multiple times in a single day. Obviously this will be one of the first things I get checked out once the insurance is active, because while I can GUESS at this, there's no way for me to know for certain. If nothing else it can give me a starting point with a psychiatrist.
Also? As of this moment, my preferred pronouns are they/their and my name is reverting to Carla. I'd rather it were something more gender neutral, and I suppose I could go back to calling myself B or Bea, but whatever.
I would give a large sum of money to never, EVER have to deal with gender (either my own or others') ever again. I fucking hate gender, sex, sexuality and all that. It makes me nauseous.
