28 September 2014
Sep. 28th, 2014 09:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
seishunCracked open the first jar of my homemade refrigerator pickles. They're pretty darn tasty.
I've spent most of the day depressed (again). I'm trying to do self-care (took a shower and washed my hair, for instance) but it's not making much of a difference. It doesn't matter how good a job I do taking care of myself if I don't believe that I deserve to be treated well. And the fact of the matter is, I don't. I feel like I deserve every iota of pain and misery I've been feeling lately, much as I'd like it to stop. I don't think I've done anything specifically to deserve any of it; I just DO. If there's a pill or an elixir to make me mentally healthy and well-adjusted, I'd like some right now, please.
I might be going to try to learn German. You might ask, "Why German?" Well, I like it. Deutsch ist so schöne Sprache. I did some self-study a while back and it seemed pretty easy to grasp the basics. I won't be coming at it from the standpoint of someone trying to achieve fluency. I think I'm too old for that possibility, but it would be nice to be able to be able to hold a conversation with a native speaker.
The new season of The Simpsons started tonight and it was pretty good. We're going to watch Sleepy Hollow and maybe Agents of SHIELD at some point, though I'm a little less interested in those right now for various reasons. In the case of Sleepy Hollow I'm concerned that it might be a little to serious and intense for me in my current frame of mind. And I'm way behind on SHIELD. I think I have about half a dozen episodes from the first season to watch, and I've really, REALLY not been interested in watching them, so I may never pick that up again. Dunno.
Doctor Who continues to be a blast. I think Peter Capaldi is my favourite of the new Doctors, though Paul McGann's turn as Eight in The Night of the Doctor shows just a small taste of what might have been. The interplay between Twelve and Clara is so sharp and it's obvious she's discomfitted by the changes but she's up to the challenge of getting to know this occasionally nasty old man she's been saddled with. It's hard to believe we're halfway through the new season already.
Travis has the day off tomorrow, and we're renting a car (go, Zipcar!) to take my iPad mini back to the repair place to get the screen repaired. I hope they don't give me any shit about it. The glass is intact and there's no way on Earth they can tell me that the screen should have gotten fucked up from a light press. It's clear to me they damaged the screen when they replaced the glass.
I think I'm going to go attempt sleep. Depression and anxiety are exhausting.
I've spent most of the day depressed (again). I'm trying to do self-care (took a shower and washed my hair, for instance) but it's not making much of a difference. It doesn't matter how good a job I do taking care of myself if I don't believe that I deserve to be treated well. And the fact of the matter is, I don't. I feel like I deserve every iota of pain and misery I've been feeling lately, much as I'd like it to stop. I don't think I've done anything specifically to deserve any of it; I just DO. If there's a pill or an elixir to make me mentally healthy and well-adjusted, I'd like some right now, please.
I might be going to try to learn German. You might ask, "Why German?" Well, I like it. Deutsch ist so schöne Sprache. I did some self-study a while back and it seemed pretty easy to grasp the basics. I won't be coming at it from the standpoint of someone trying to achieve fluency. I think I'm too old for that possibility, but it would be nice to be able to be able to hold a conversation with a native speaker.
The new season of The Simpsons started tonight and it was pretty good. We're going to watch Sleepy Hollow and maybe Agents of SHIELD at some point, though I'm a little less interested in those right now for various reasons. In the case of Sleepy Hollow I'm concerned that it might be a little to serious and intense for me in my current frame of mind. And I'm way behind on SHIELD. I think I have about half a dozen episodes from the first season to watch, and I've really, REALLY not been interested in watching them, so I may never pick that up again. Dunno.
Doctor Who continues to be a blast. I think Peter Capaldi is my favourite of the new Doctors, though Paul McGann's turn as Eight in The Night of the Doctor shows just a small taste of what might have been. The interplay between Twelve and Clara is so sharp and it's obvious she's discomfitted by the changes but she's up to the challenge of getting to know this occasionally nasty old man she's been saddled with. It's hard to believe we're halfway through the new season already.
Travis has the day off tomorrow, and we're renting a car (go, Zipcar!) to take my iPad mini back to the repair place to get the screen repaired. I hope they don't give me any shit about it. The glass is intact and there's no way on Earth they can tell me that the screen should have gotten fucked up from a light press. It's clear to me they damaged the screen when they replaced the glass.
I think I'm going to go attempt sleep. Depression and anxiety are exhausting.
