Daily affirmation 13 August 2014
Aug. 13th, 2014 01:43 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
seishunI just noticed I'm getting the dates wrong. While yes, technically, it IS the 13th right now, my inner pedant should feel free to fuck off, as it's still the 12th.
ANYWAY.
So today several things happened. One is that I woke up. At my age (I’m closing in on 50 a lot faster than I’d like) this isn’t always a given. Douglas Adams died unexpectedly at 49, and that’s only a couple years off. I also had a good, long talk with Travis where we decided to, at some point in the next few months, get a cat. I’m excited about this possibility and hope we can make it happen, but I’d like to get a job and get settled into its routines before I bring an animal into the house. I’d hate to get a pet and then have to leave it alone while it’s getting accustomed to its new home. That’s stressful enough as it is; having a sudden additional change happen in the middle of THAT would only add to it.
I also decided that to help combat the extreme loneliness I’ve been feeling I will resume attending Transgender Perceptions, which as you may surmise from its name is a trans support/chat group which meets every Friday evening at the Los Angeles Gay & Lesbian Center. This does unfortunately require me to schlep to Hollywood every week, but I can deal with that. I’d stopped going because I felt unsafe in the neighborhood after the meeting. There are a lot of gay and trans hookups happening up there, paid and otherwise, and while I’ve never been hassled by anyone, I still feel uncomfortable. Thankfully the bus stop is only half a block from the Center and the area is well-lit, so. As an added bonus, Travis and I decided that when he comes up to Santa Monica and 14th to meet me after the meetings, we’ll pop in to DK’s Donuts (16th and Santa Monica) for doughnuts.
So as far as affirmations go… I don’t really have one at the moment. I’m trying to listen to other peoples’ voices in my head, though, the ones which tell me over and over that I am loved, that I am worthy of that love. I’m trying to short-circuit the thought patterns which lead me to assume that everyone secretly hates me and hasn’t told me this for…um…REASONS.
So today’s been good, apart from some pretty severe depression this afternoon, which Travis helped me through. We took a walk up to DK’s for doughnuts because doughnuts, and got a good walk in the bargain. And tonight I saw several more meteors, including one fairly large and bright one. Not as cool as the fireball I saw in 2000/01, but still very impressive.
ANYWAY.
So today several things happened. One is that I woke up. At my age (I’m closing in on 50 a lot faster than I’d like) this isn’t always a given. Douglas Adams died unexpectedly at 49, and that’s only a couple years off. I also had a good, long talk with Travis where we decided to, at some point in the next few months, get a cat. I’m excited about this possibility and hope we can make it happen, but I’d like to get a job and get settled into its routines before I bring an animal into the house. I’d hate to get a pet and then have to leave it alone while it’s getting accustomed to its new home. That’s stressful enough as it is; having a sudden additional change happen in the middle of THAT would only add to it.
I also decided that to help combat the extreme loneliness I’ve been feeling I will resume attending Transgender Perceptions, which as you may surmise from its name is a trans support/chat group which meets every Friday evening at the Los Angeles Gay & Lesbian Center. This does unfortunately require me to schlep to Hollywood every week, but I can deal with that. I’d stopped going because I felt unsafe in the neighborhood after the meeting. There are a lot of gay and trans hookups happening up there, paid and otherwise, and while I’ve never been hassled by anyone, I still feel uncomfortable. Thankfully the bus stop is only half a block from the Center and the area is well-lit, so. As an added bonus, Travis and I decided that when he comes up to Santa Monica and 14th to meet me after the meetings, we’ll pop in to DK’s Donuts (16th and Santa Monica) for doughnuts.
So as far as affirmations go… I don’t really have one at the moment. I’m trying to listen to other peoples’ voices in my head, though, the ones which tell me over and over that I am loved, that I am worthy of that love. I’m trying to short-circuit the thought patterns which lead me to assume that everyone secretly hates me and hasn’t told me this for…um…REASONS.
So today’s been good, apart from some pretty severe depression this afternoon, which Travis helped me through. We took a walk up to DK’s for doughnuts because doughnuts, and got a good walk in the bargain. And tonight I saw several more meteors, including one fairly large and bright one. Not as cool as the fireball I saw in 2000/01, but still very impressive.